User blog comment:IamJakuhoRaikoben/Chapter 468: Memory of the Stars, Review./@comment-86.66.207.21-20160111095704/@comment-1776824-20160111095912

It's about Brandish. "What I want to do" is clearly about her trying to decide between doing what she feels, and doing what she's told. Because as she said before, what she does is entirely different from how she feels. That internal struggle is going to most likely be a larger focus of next week.